And we know that in all things God works for the good of those who love Him, who have been called according to His purpose. For those God foreknew He also predestined to be conformed to the likeness of His Son, that He might be the firstborn among many brothers. And those He predestined, He also called; those He called, He also justified; those He justified, He also glorified.

   What, then, shall we say in response to this? If God is for us, who can be against us? He who did not spare His own Son, but gave Him up for us all - how will He not also, along with Him, graciously give us all things? Who will bring any charge against those whom God has chosen? It is God who justifies. Christ Jesus, who died - more than that, who was raised to life - is at the right hand of God and is also interceding for us. Who shall separate us from the love of Christ? Shall trouble or hardship or persecution or famine or nakedness or danger or sword? As it is written: "For Your sake we face death all day long; we are considered as sheep to be slaughtered." No, in all these things we are more than conquerors through Him who loved us. For I am convinced that neither death nor life, neither angels nor demons, neither the present nor the future, nor any powers, neither height nor depth, nor anything else in all creation, will be able to separate us from the love of God that is in Christ Jesus our Lord.  (Romans 8:28-39)

   i love this passage, it has encouraged me countless times and yet whenever i read it, the wonder of God's love still strikes me afresh. i find it so difficult to comprehend that His love encompasses and surpasses everything, that NOTHING i do can stop Him from loving me. this love that has no conditions, and yet it springs anew every morning.

   this week i've sadly drifted a bit from God, i guess because i've been adequately prepared for the papers, and also because it gets easier to ignore Him the moment i start playing. i hate this state of growing closer to God one week, then drifting the next because of my complacency, and then coming back again because i realise how empty my life is without Him. i feel so insincere and hollow sometimes. :(

   thinking about the issue of __ has made me see how desperately i need God's wisdom. i really don't know what to do, or even whether i should do anything, because it's not in my position to pry or judge, even if it's wrong. but i also don't want to regret not doing anything, as i am sortof regretting now, even though i know that at that time i could've done very little. it's frustrating me because this is something i've no idea how to handle. and it's also forcing me to continually check my life and ask myself whether i'm being hypocritical in my actions, whether i'm being judgemental, whether i'm doing what God wants me to do. i don't know, i think i shall be mulling over this for the next week. i really really need to pray hard over this because it's so complicated, and because i find it very hard to know where's the line between rebuking in love and judging.

   and as my title says, this is what God has been telling me to do recently. to wait on Him, to wait for His plans, to be happy with whatever i have now. i guess i just need to trust Him more with every aspect of my life.

O Lord You've searched me

You know my way

Even when I fail You

I know You love me

Your holy presence

Surrounding me

In every season

I know You love me

*At the cross I bow my knee

Where Your blood was shed for me

There's no greater love than this

You have overcome the grave

Your glory fills the highest place

What can separate me now?

You go before me

You shield my way

Your hand upholds me

I know You love me

And when the earth fades

Falls from my eyes

And You stand before me

I know You love me

I know You love me