So do not fear, for I am with you;

do not be dismayed, for I am your God.

I will strengthen you and help you;

I will uphold you with my righteous right hand.

Isaiah 41:10

   last night was pretty bad on all accounts, i've not felt so alone and helpless in a very long time. but even in the midst of all the sadness and jumbled up feelings and not knowing what else to do, God was there for me. these few days have taught me that even when everything, friends, family, achievements, have passed away, God's Word, and His eternal love, "will never pass away." (Matthew 24:35) i'm glad that He's teaching me the value of finding my confidence in Him and not in anyone, anything else, because ultimately this is the first and greatest commandment, "Love the Lord your God with all your heart and with all your soul and with all your mind." (Matthew 22:37)

   this song meant a lot to me last night.

I was sure by now
God You would have reached down
And wiped our tears away
And stepped in and saved the day
Once again, I say Amen, and it is still raining

As the thunder rolls
I barely hear You whisper through the rain
"I'm with you"
As Your mercy falls
I raise my hands and praise the God who gives
And takes away

I'll praise You in this storm
And I will lift my hands
You are who You are
No matter where I am
And every tear I've cried
You hold in Your hand
You've never left my side
And though my heart is torn
I will praise You in this storm

I remember when
I stumbled in the wind
You heard my cry
You raised me up again
My strength is almost gone
How can I carry on
If I can't find You

I lift my eyes into the hills
Where does my help come from
My help comes from the Lord
The Maker of heaven and earth

-"Praise You in this storm", Casting Crowns